这两天因为工作的原因，在高速上两个城镇之间开了几个来回。一路开车无聊，换了好些个电台随便听着音乐，因此把一首歌反复听了不少遍，无端地被它的歌词和曲调弄出了些许伤感。

这首歌的歌名叫：今天我不想爱你。英文歌词如下：

I Don't Feel Like Loving You Today

I don't feel like loving you today
So don't you even try to change my mind
The best thing you can do right now is just go away
'Cause I don't feel like loving you today

I don't wanna talk about last night
I'm angry and I haven't had much sleep
And I'm so tired and bloodshot there ain't no tellin' what I'd say
I don't feel like loving you today

But you know I will anyway
Even though we make it hard sometimes
I'll wind up forgiving you and probably loving you
For the rest of my life

But I don't feel like loving you today
And I've got 16 hours left to go
I might tell you that I'm leaving
Even though you know I'll stay
'Cause I don't feel like loving you today

But you know I will anyway
Even though we make it hard sometimes
I'll wind up forgiving you and probably loving you
For the rest of my life

But I don't feel like loving you today
I just don't feel like loving you today

本来已经试着翻译了一下，这会儿却找不到那个文件了，以后找来再补上。

仔细想想，这首歌之所以打动了我，可能是因为它把普通人的爱情生活中，那种常有的瞬间的无奈，表现得极为准确。当歌手反复地唱出“But I don't feel like loving you today......"时，自己的情感生活中那许多似曾相识的瞬间也涌上了心头。

很多时候，并不是“爱”或“不爱”的问题，只是彼此之间需要给对方一点空间，让一些莫名的骚动慢慢沉淀，让一些无源的疑惑自我消散。然后，我们就可以平静下来，将爱情进行到底。

实际上写作本身已形成自由的空间，在字里行间，“一些莫名的骚动正慢慢沉淀，一些无源的疑惑正自我消散。然后，我们就可以平静下来，将爱情进行到底”。

有些道理。我写的东西，我老公开始还看，后来就不看了。他说是要给我留点“空间”。:-)

今天我不想爱你是为了明天更爱你，就像记忆是在暂短的忘却后更加清晰。

爱本是生活的主旋律。但唱得太猛了，也要停顿一下，歇一歇。

凡事都要喘口气的，就这样。：)

爱是生活的主旋律？过去是这样认为的，现在我已经不很肯定了。:-)